Babies & Positive Pregnancy Tests

Last night I had a dream, a vivid one. The kind of dream that when you wake up, you wonder if it’s true. I hadn’t had a pregnancy dream since I was pregnant with my son 10 years ago. As much as we LOVE our son, another child is just not on the radar. IContinue reading “Babies & Positive Pregnancy Tests”

Eat Your Brussels Sprouts

I’ve been wrestling lately with how we respond as a culture given a common circumstance. That’s simple enough, right? Example, let us reflect simply on a child’s food preference. As a society, it’s acceptable if someone doesn’t like mushrooms, or kale or even cheeseburgers for that matter. Get my drift? Even if the world lovesContinue reading “Eat Your Brussels Sprouts”

Adulting, Instagram & Chronic Nostalgia

It’s been hard at times to remember who I AM. Who God has created me to be. After a year of labels, name calling, hate and gas lighting… mentally it has taken a toll. I don’t write this to worry anybody, I will be fine. God is with me through the fire and I knowContinue reading “Adulting, Instagram & Chronic Nostalgia”

Get your sh*t together, Carol!

It’s been very hard to focus, yet I am forcing myself to continue the renovation that started this past year. For one, the heaviness of the outcome, being unresolved, still makes me emotional. I tell myself over and over again that I did everything that I could to make it all feel worth it. IContinue reading “Get your sh*t together, Carol!”

F*ck It

A few weeks ago I decided to get back in the recording studio, something that pains me and leaves me feeling vulnerable AF. I don’t feel my best when I am in the studio because it doesn’t feel like a safe space due to past experiences. Ahem!¬†I tend to recluse and disappear somewhere inside myContinue reading “F*ck It”

Undone

I have let myself become undone. I am vulnerable allowing myself to fall apart, nurtured and rebuilt. ¬†Looking at kindness as my guide and my goal. I am learning how to live my life open, vulnerable, without walls instead of the hyper-vigilance that I once did. My body is forcing me to address the debrisContinue reading “Undone”

Don’t worry, I won’t tell anybody.

I am about to share something that I’ve wanted to pretend never happened since I was 18. A burden I thought I’d have to carry for the rest of my life and suffer in silence. For those who do read this story, I know will ask, like any other victim of rape or assault, whyContinue reading “Don’t worry, I won’t tell anybody.”

The Harvey Weinstein Effect

Sexual assault, harassment & age discrimination is no secret in Hollywood and I don’t know one female who hasn’t experienced it in one way or another. I myself have experienced all of the above. The Harvey Weinstein scandal is just the tip on the iceberg. Hollywood culture doesn’t nurture an environment that embraces women whoContinue reading “The Harvey Weinstein Effect”