Liar! Liar! Liar!

For the first 2 weeks, I shook. I cried. I barely ate. No longer being able to depend on denial as a coping mechanism was gone. I was out. Everyone knew. I woke up every morning anticipating the next brave woman who would speak out and stand with me. Silence. What came next was a [...]

Eat Your Brussels Sprouts

I've been wrestling lately with how we respond as a culture given a common circumstance. That's simple enough, right? Example, let us reflect simply on a child's food preference. As a society, it's acceptable if someone doesn't like mushrooms, or kale or even cheeseburgers for that matter. Get my drift? Even if the world loves [...]

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Get your sh*t together, Carol!

It's been very hard to focus, yet I am forcing myself to continue the renovation that started this past year. For one, the heaviness of the outcome, being unresolved, still makes me emotional. I tell myself over and over again that I did everything that I could to make it all feel worth it. I [...]

F*ck It

A few weeks ago I decided to get back in the recording studio, something that pains me and leaves me feeling vulnerable AF. I don't feel my best when I am in the studio because it doesn't feel like a safe space due to past experiences. Ahem! I tend to recluse and disappear somewhere inside my [...]

Undone

I have let myself become undone. I am vulnerable allowing myself to fall apart, nurtured and rebuilt.  Looking at kindness as my guide and my goal. I am learning how to live my life open, vulnerable, without walls instead of the hyper-vigilance that I once did. My body is forcing me to address the debris [...]

Shadow Days

The last 8 months have been a purging of past pain. At times it has felt excruciating. Regardless, my willingness to engage in my story has allowed me the words and the knowledge to not only recover from the trauma but help other survivors of trauma & abuse as well. Do I have battle scars? [...]